Life at 40
So, it's only been 42 days since I turned 40 and I have to say embracing this age has been amazing. I don't feel my age, nor do I look it and if I continue to be blessed with this flawless look into my fifties, then I definitely don't have anything to worry about.
All I need to do is continue having a positive outlook on life, take care of myself and enjoy every moment.
Six months ago I contemplated having a birthday party, only because I was put off by all the preparations I had to make. But, after months of organising, spending money, collaborating with various services, including the photographer, the DJ's, the venue owner, the video woman and the caterers, my birthday party was the best celebration I had ever experienced. Words can't explain how happy I was, knowing that all my friends and family came and supported, by showing so much love and positive vibes.
I give thanks that I have reached this milestone having undergone some difficult years.
I am grateful to wake up and see another day. I feel a sense of fulfillment, knowing that I have reached where I am today because of 'myself' and no one else. I am blessed to have so many loving people in life and I am also thankful for everything I have achieved.
Since becoming 40, I have felt nothing, but determination. I have enjoyed maintaining my health and fitness. I have made it my priority to spend as much time as possible with friends and I have also dedicated time to myself. Don't get me wrong, it hasn't been all smooth sailing. I have faced many obstacles in the process. Things have happened that I didn't expect, but I have dealt with them as best as I can.
I have detached myself from people who I realised did me no justice. I have removed myself from situations that didn't bring me any joy. Reason being, before my birthday, I told myself that this was going to be an amazing new chapter.
In life, things don't always go according to plan. Therefore, all I can to do is take each day as it comes and hope for the best. As hard as it may be to accept, I cannot control everything that happens in my life. The only thing I can control, is the way I deal with certain situations.
People say, things happen for a reason. They also claim change is good and whilst change may be good, it can also bring some disappointment. These last few weeks have been quite difficult for me, but I have continued to smile regardless of the amount of times I have wanted to cry. But, this is life. We have ups and downs, we have laughter and tears. If we cry each time we get defeated, we will only be discouraged.
During some of my harder times in life, I wore a pretty smile on my face no matter what I was going through. Only a few close people in my life knew what was really going on during my hardest trials. Once you begin to show others you have ups, downs and struggles in life just like everyone else, you become more trustworthy and sincere to others.
I just hope that 2019 will bring me the best of luck in life, love and happiness. After all, at this age, I don't have time to waste on things, or people that don't compliment my life. I expect people to treat me with the upmost respect and I will not tolerate anything less.
Being 40 has taught me to keep fighting for what I want. We all need time to decide how we live our lives in a way that compliments who we are today. It’s easy to get stuck in routines without realising that they no longer deliver like they used to.
Being in my 40s means being established enough to afford the things I’ve always wanted to do and being young enough to enjoy them.
I truly believe if I had accepted the good and bad parts of myself at a younger age, I would have avoided many of the wrong decisions that I made in my life. Once you know who you really are inside, you begin to accept and love yourself fully.